Fail again

Hate that I miss you
I make myself disappoint again
I should not talk to you
I know you are here
Every time, I see you there
quietly, without a word
I will think about what makes you busy
your work, you schedule, your itinerary or your beloved one
I should get away from you, to a place without your news
even I can ignore my existence
I should
I know
I should

just
every time when I say i should
just
I can't

from Jane